Insight

A concerned Co worker called me and inquired as to my reason for deleting my social networking sites of which he was a "friend." He at first stated that he was shocked and then he himself deleted his! He called me to thank him, for waking him up to all that he was missing in life. He begin to tell me that he was finding himself concerned with others more than he was with his own self development and that he no longer wished to waste his life. What an amazing happening! I had not really connected with this fellow at work at first but as he shared with me his passion for photography, specifically surf photography, our relations grew. I have spent of course 13 hours at a time with him at work, talking and discussing life, arts, and philosophy between patients and OR cases of course.

He has taught me so many wonderful things, especially how to deal with "lame" women as he puts it. I will never forget the night that one of our co - workers was being a bit on the selfish and attitudinal side and projecting her 2 cents and righteousness into everything all the while criticizing everyone else. It brought for some interesting insights. The best part of the night was after the alleged woman, shouted at my comrade for singing out loud while doing his work (which he always does anyways), she tripped and fell flat on her butt in the middle of the unit. He helped her up, and dusted he off, being genuinely concerned for her well being. She was so embarrassed by this, and instantly ashamed at her actions over the period of the night. He looked at me, winked and said..."what goes around, comes around." Those words I have found to be so true. Although at times it is hard to find the comfort in those words it has been proven over time that you will be repaid for all of your actions, whether your payment brings suffering or joy is all up to the intentions and motives that rest within your heart.

He got me thinking about things that I have missed out on in life by being concerned with others and inspired this list.

Things That I Will No Longer Miss Out On.

Coffee or tea time.
Bike rides.
Time with my family.
Time with my cousins.
Time with my younger sisters.
Reading Books.
Research.
Studying Labor and Delivery
Obtaining my MS Degree and my RNP
Surfing, Surfing, and More Surfing.
Swimming.
Diving.
Hiking.
Physical Activity.
Dancing.
Writing and becoming published.
Photography.
Time with my father.
Travel.
Pure love.

Sigh, I still am a bit saddened by the fact that I have spent the last year engaged in shallow relations, bars, clubs, drinking, social networking sites, all the while playing the fool and questioning the whereabouts of depth of relation. I feel so ignorant for questioning meaningful relationships while all the while spending my time engaged in areas, and activities that foster nothing but shallow relations, supported by intoxication. Sigh.